Dream about Dreams

I don't know if it is because I am seriously sick and under a whole lot of medication ....but last nights dreams were CRAZY and so clear. I thought I would interpret it. This isn’t a new thing. I try interpret dreams all the time……just thought I would publish one.

My Dream:
I was in our apartment alone and it was day light. I remember saying if there was anything evil in the room I would for sure feel it and I didn't feel anything. Then it became darker as in the blinds were closed but it was still day light outside. I for some reason could move things with my mind. I lifted my hand and with out touching it the object would move. I was opening fridges and moving tissue paper. I began to pray out loud " anything that is not of Christ be gone....leave this room." then I lifted my hand and something moved again. I began freaking out why did I have this power and was it really coming from God? I could move things without any effort.
Then I was in a different kitchen in a warm place and I was opening a wedding present and my auntie from Zimbabwe walked in the door and gave me a message (don't know what the message was). Maita was in the room too. We had to move and there were special arrangements being made to fly somewhere to meet with many people. Something had happened but it was like we were expecting it. I didn't feel anything. As in it felt normal..it was the messages I was trying to figure out. Particularly the one message in the wedding card.
I was then taken into my past. A time of growing up in Mananga. I was standing by the mulberry tree where we used to build our tree houses. I saw Nyemu she was a toddler and she was running so fast. I shouted at her "beware of snakes" and thought to myself this child has no fear she just goes. She ran through the bushes and across the grass to Hama who was playing with his friend. Nyemu was telling Hama of a special guest who was visiting. She ran back thru the hedge and greeted this other person (an African child) Hama came through as if he wanted to meet this person but walked passed with a sense of pride. Meanwhile maita and I are still by the mulberry tree. We decided to go say hi. I see a huge tree with many pink flowers that are matching my dress. I ask maita to take a picture of me as she was carrying the camera but she was quiet. She takes it and we walk to go meet this Child.
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My thoughts:
Okay since yesterday was about achieving dreams I think this might have something to do with it.
Moving things with the mind might mean discovering things about myself that I didn’t know I could do or accomplish. The praying relates to my fears of being able to distinguish what I am doing as right or wrong. Is what I am doing what God wants me to do?
The second part is very blurry. It almost feels like it is in the future because I am looking back.
The third part relates to my childhood shortcomings of dealing with a situation. As these people are important in making me who I am today. How they interact with meeting that person (a goal) could possibly be a warning of things to avoid in perusing my dream.

• My fears of Nyemu being too young to do something: relates to my own fears of being inadequate to do something…yet when I let those fears go she succeeded.
• My interactions with maita relate to my self-centeredness. In getting Maita to take a picture of myself made maita focus on me and not on what was important….meeting this person. Warning that self-centeredness can prevent me from succeeding.
• My observation of Hama not greeting this person relate to a pride issue that I may need to deal with or avoid.

These are all just possibilities. Could just be a dream.

Dreams and God

We all have dreams! Be it a wannabe singer, dancer, songwriter, model, racecar driver, writer or moviemaker. Some people dream of being various things those are the Big Dreamers like Vuyo.....if you haven't seen that add click here. Whatever it is or they are, those dreams are in us for a reason. I believe God plants these desires in our hearts but we have the choice of following them or not.

But what stops us from dreaming.... fear, money, past hurts? This past weekend at Youth Camp we had small group discussions about our dreams. It took me back to the time when I was a teenager and the dreams I had. What stopped me from dreaming....did I ever stop? I mean if God said to you, you could have anything in this world anything or you could be anything....what would it be? What are our God given talents and why are we not using them if we know we have them? Or why aren't we bringing our dreams to the Lord? He is our provider.

After reading the book the Alchemist a couple of years ago, I really began to reflect on what might my destiny be, where was God calling me and for what. The book talks about people who stop dreaming and it ignited a fear in me. Was I one of those people? The ones that stop dreaming and thus the universe and God stops providing. If we asked anyone who has made it big in whatever field....they probably would tell you that it started with a small dream or passion which they followed. They didn't just dance in on it.

Some of the sayings that have made an impact on my perspective of life is

* Never make a principal out of an experience let God be as original as you as He is for everyone! (Crazy Love Audio book).
* "I was made for this moment" Be it bad or good..... you were made for it.
* God is a creator not a duplicator
* What are you doing with what God has given you? We don't have to have a lot of money or big friends to
* How do your God given talents Glorify God? Once we figure that out.... our dreams will be so much more rewarding.

These are just some of the things that have been on my heart.

Money and People: Bentley Continental Supersport Launch

Since Avon started working at Monte Casino we have had great opportunities to go to events I wouldn't normally have the privilege of going to. But have you ever been to a place where there are really "important" people all around you and you are trying your best to not feel so less important or less valuable. You know that God considers you important, not by the money you have or car you drive, but this situation gets you thinking...But Am I?. Well last night Avon and I fortunately got tickets to the official launch of the new Bentley Continental Supersports Car. From the invitation I could tell this was going to be one of those events......the invitation was so crisp and “first class,” it screamed money.

Like any women the first thing that went through my mind when we got the invitation was “what do I wear.” In my experience of 6 months of marriage asking the Husband is the safest bet. Whatever he chooses has made me feel good. I get a sense of confidence when he makes the decision, a feeling that what I am wearing is pleasing to my Husbands eyes. And at the end of the day that is all that matters! Anyways so the night before he had decided I should go for the “black Number dress.” Now every girl should have a black number dress. Its that dress that fits you just right, it is simple and sassy but not too much, you can dress it up or down. It is a never fail in a situation when you don’t know what to expect. Um so I have a couple of “Black Number Dresses.”. But on this particular day I felt like I had out worn my favorite 3. The short cute black one had a loose hem, the Knee length V dress needed to be sticky rolled and my tight black dress just felt too tight. POSSIBLE disaster!!!! But when in DOUBT bring the wedding out fits OUT!!!! I tried to look for the outfit closest to the “black number” I rushed out the door in a frenzy to pick up Avon but was feeling proud that , in 30 minutes I had showered, changed, done my hair and attempted a bit of make up! Wow if any of you know me….that is probably a record time.

AAA the Bentley opening was really elegantly set up it was so classy and so sassy! The venue was in the Pits of the Kyalami International Race track. It was just before sunset so the air was nice and warm. Outside were huge Bentley cars possibly owned by the people at the event.

Everyone there looked important and full of money, which for some reason made me feel awkward. It made me feel as if I wasn’t important enough in this world…to be at such an event, okay maybe I wasn't coz. But this rich people complex is something I really need to get over because as Avon says they are just people like you and me , Rich or Poor, beautiful or less attractive, we all have dreams, we all are human, we all want to be loved. But why is it so hard to see past the Money, the Big for nothing cars, the make-up and the implants. I saw a beautiful lady walk in the room and DAM she was wearing the “Black Number Dress” hers was fitting her just right but the quality seemed not so good. But either way she was rocking it…..I don’t JURGE (Judge lol). I leaned over to tell Avon that he was right with what he suggested me to wear. She was actually a supermodel in her hey days, not that she was very old. It hurt me so much to see that she wasn’t actually as attractive inside. The way she talked to the bar tender when she ordered her drinks seemed rude in a way and she seemed angry. I found out that she probably wasn’t such a happy person.. having gone through a divorce. But she walked as if she was SOMEBODY!

After speeches and plenty of delicious snacks they selected people who were in the highest tax range to be a passenger for a drive in the new Bentley something something. Not that I really wanted too go but gosh money really does talk. I honestly just wanted to take a picture with the car ….to update my car picture collection….. a hobby I just picked up since I got married. It’s the best of both worlds…Avon gets to check out the cool cars…and I get the honour of posing with them ☺.

It was kind of hard trying to get close to this NEW BENTLEY CONTINENTAL SPUPERSPORT…coz all the Big Shots where in Aw of it. I just wanted to jump in and get a picture. So I turned to Avon and said…..” lets make it quick. I run in and you just take the picture.” I ran in and just as I was about to do my new legendary but out Kanya pose, Derek Bell just said “ Hey let me get a picture with this beautiful girl here” I actually got excited coz this Big shot racer actually wanted to take a photo with me ☺ . I didn’t get the photo I was heading for, but I got an upgrade. I thought maybe he thought I was just as important as everyone there.. which meant my acting skills have improved lol….. but I doubt it. He was sincere and interactive with everyone.

I did eventually get a shmooz moment. I began chatting with a wonderful lady who has been married 36 years, don’t know who she was or how important she was. But I really didn’t want to think about that. I just wanted to get to know her as her no strings attached. She gave Avon and I tips on marriage and it was so encouraging to see a couple that had been married for so long….but still seemed to have that honeymoon feeling about them! Her advise was “When I am angry it doesn’t mean I don’t love you any less, I am just angry”

After having a couple of free glasses of wine, a bunch of delicious snacks and desserts, great people watching moments and decent conversations…..I was glad I came. Behind the big cars and money we really are just people. I believe the people we need to worry about or stay clear of are the ones that think that the money defines them and gives them “power.” Our treasures are somewhere else and sometimes I even need to be reminded of it! But the Bentley Continental Supersport sure has VUMA!

If any of you have tips on how fight the materialistic world please do share!


Mad love Kanya

PS: I know this car aint a Bentley!!!! It was a gate crasher.